The BloomBoom

Hola Glam Fam chicassss! The last blogpost was on the fourth of February. It's been a while. I've been stuck in my other realities, books, series, chats, texts and revision. A lot has happened. I'm bubbling with drama that happened on the last ETZ for forever and stuff that happened yesterday. most of it revolves around Felix, Cucumber and Agent 009. Mostly on 009. Honestly, he's got me feeling in all different ways. And I've been listening to some people's advice because I don't know how I'm supposed to feel and react and what I'm supposed to do. I don't know what's happening. Just when I thought I knew who I was. I don't require control of the situation, I allow myself to flow, but I just don't know. I don't know. I don't know if I show such vulnerability on my blog to random people, but this just shows how much I trust yall. I'm scared. For 9th grade. And for 10th after that. And then 11th. And then 12th. And then? Wh...

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Glam fam! Not to be a pick me, but I cannot seem to cry. I know it sounds like something I should be grateful for because I shouldn't cry, but crying is the most easiest way for me to let everything out. I feel very irritated  in my current environment. It's an unexplainable kind of irritation. The kind that makes you wanna scream your lungs out. The kind that makes you wanna punch people in their faces. I can't direct all of this emotion anywhere. Normally I suppress it all and let the tears fall across my cheek. I feel very much relieved after a good cry. But that's the thing. I can't CRY.  I even strain my eyes so that tears come out, but the magic doesn't work. 😭 Even spamming the crying emoji won't help express my pain. I wanna cry because I can't cry. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Your BloomBoss, trying to express her emotions trying not to sound like a pick-me and an idiot, Bloom.🍍 Boom.💥 Out.⭐